I wish I knew

The signs, if they are indeed signs..

Am I reading them as they are?

Is there right or wrong?



You're the first person that comes to mind

As the first rays of the sun come into my window these days

You're there even as I sleep

And when we talk it's the best feeling ever

Never heard your voice before...

Just your words...

And still, such an impression you've made



No one's privy to the things in the future...

But how I wish I knew...

Just a glimpse..



It seems like you have a world of your own

But I've always been one to easily have her world revolve someone

You are quickly becoming that someone

And I wish you knew

I wish you didn't



Some things are best left unsaid

And you will never know what could have been..

So which one is it?

To tell or not to tell?

That is the question...

I wish I knew

To keep afloat..

It creeps in the shadows

Peering through slits of fleeting happiness

Only glimpses of that, to be sure

Almost always a struggle

To stay afloat

Above all the thoughts

That are such keen visitors

Their enthusiasm infectious

Like the relentless hands that forces you underwater

The thoughts persists

Their enthusiasm, infectious

Sometimes it's a friend

Sometimes a sly stranger

But always hovering

Smothering all good thoughts

Till I fear they are lost forever

But the search never ends

The struggle never ceases

And falter will I never

Something guides along

Though I sometimes am not aware of it

Never leaving my side

Pulling me up every time I'm pulled under

Funny how I'm always aware of the other

Always acknowledging

Almost like a friend, it's welcomed

But friends don't smother, don't hurt

I shall keep up the struggle

Through the fleeting happiness

A relentless struggle

Just to keep afloat